Part 10: Live and Learn...or just Live.

Okay so in my last post I revealed Collin's real name, but I had to go back and change it. I didn't feel right having it on there, even Carrie on sex and the City uses "Big" as the alias of her guy in her column. I went and saw Sex and the City movie and I really liked it...but I cried a lot. Carrie and Big just kind of remind me of Collin and I, so the movie went a little deeper. So if I ever need a good cry that is my movie.

Okay lets take a trip back to my story...So I had been emailing Collin back and forth for a while then we finally made plans to hang out. I met up with him. I went and saw his new apartment. He moved so much...it always made me wonder what he was running from. Probably all the other girls he left in the dust. So I walk into his apartment he gives me the tour and in the last room he shows me he grabs me and kisses me with so much passion. I know this wasn't good...but if you where in my shoes you'd understand. Kissing him and being close to him just felt so right. And I always felt safe in his arms. We then went across the street to a quiet bar. (I know I never learn!) We talked for a long time. We had a great conversation. I even told him how the last breakup hurt me especially the way he broke up with me. He just kept saying he was sorry for being so stupid. We spent a long part of the night there talking and drinking. He told me Kristy was in the process of moving out, and how awkward living with your ex can be..yada yada. Well we both where a bit gone when we left so we decided to go back to Collin's place since it was just across the street. We thought we would play the wii and sober up.

Earlier that night Collin had broke his apartment key. Kristy called while we where at the bar. She said she was stopping by to grab more of her stuff, Collin told her to leave the door unlocked for him becasue his key broke. Then she asked him where he was. He said I am across the street having a drink with Lauren. Wow he told the truth! I was amazed! It gave me hope.

When we arrived at Collin's the door was locked. Collin knocked. No answer. He was getting very pissed so then he started kicking the door. It is like 1am. I am trying my hardest to keep him quiet. The best way I could think to do that was by kissing him softly and asking him to stop. He called Kristy no answer. He banged again. We had the landlord let us in. Kristy was there with her sister in the bedroom. I stayed in the living room. Collin went back to the bedroom and asked her why she didn't let him in. Then Kristy told him to "get that bitch out of here!" I was drunk I was not going to drive until I sobered up...that was final. Kristy came out to the living room and held the door open and told me to leave. I kindly told her I had been drinking and couldn't do that. I said I wasn't here to cause drama and I at least needed time to call someone for a ride. It was the dead of winter to so it's not like I could have gone and waited outside.

Now it is starting to get heated Kristy is yelling at me, Kristy's sister is yelling at Collin. Kristy's sister punches Collin in the face all of a sudden. There where two square coffee tables between them Collin grabs the two tables, one in each hand and throws them aside and lunges at Kristy's sister. Then he stopped and walked out of the apartment. The girls went and locked the door. Now I am stuck alone in an apartment with two girls who hate me.

I know I am a girl her ex is with and that makes me enemy #1 but she cheated on him which in all the rage she and him talked about in front of me and that was confirmed she did cheat on him, so why is she being mad at me. I didn't steal him away from her. I was never seeing him when she was. The only time that ever happened was when Collin had a girlfriend and she was the other woman and knew it. So she really had no right to be such a bitch to me.

But back to that night. So the girls called the cops and told them that Collin freaked out. I know we had a lot of drama but I really didn't think the cops had to be called. I could tell the cops felt the same way when they got there. They just seemed annoyed for having to deal with something that we should have been able to deal with ourselves. It just pisses me off when people have to bring violence and screaming into things. Kristy's sister was a scrapper. You could tell by the sound of her voice and the way she looked. Why she thought she needed to hit Collin I have no Idea I am just so glad he didn't hit her back...how pissed he got did scare me a bit but one of my friends made a good point. She said if someone hit you, would you be mad at them? Yeah I would. She said it was a natural reaction and he stopped himself. The cops saw him outside and arrested him after Kristy's sister claimed he hit her. But Collin was the one with the bloody lip so they let him go, but they held him in the cop car long enough for us to leave. I just called my roommate and had her pick me up. I couldn't deal with all of this. It was way too much.

I talked to Collin the next day I told him I was feeling unsure about "us" I told him I thought he had way too much drama in his life. I couldn't handle it. I actually have the most boring life ever. The only time I have drama is when Collin is in my life. He brings excitement. Maybe that is part of the attraction. But that night it went too far. It scared me. He pleaded with me. I told him I needed time. I just hated that he had so much drama...I knew that the drama was always what killed us.

I told him I would be willing to work things out with him, give us another chance. Things where going pretty well...until Valentine's Day. It was my first Valentine's Day with a boyfriend. I was so excited and it turned out to be the worst one ever. The details will be in my next post.