Part 11: The Valentine's Day Throw Down...

Valentine's Day. Some people love it some hate it. I always loved it. Not because I had boys giving me flowers or chocolate, but because I had a mom who loved to surprise us. at the end of the day at school when I was younger I would always get my named called down to the office and there would be balloons and usually a big stuffed animal or roses. It just was fun. As I got older I spent them with my girlfriend's.

But this year I had a guy :) I was so excited. Our schedules didn't match up. I worked in the day, Collin worked nights. So we moved Valentine's day to Sunday instead. We were going to go to the Science Museum. I still wanted to see him on Valentine's day so I told him I would stop by his work that night. I went out for dinner with a couple of my girlfriend's and planned to stop by after I dropped them off. On the way to my friend's house Collin texts me "Don't come visit tonight, it is super busy and my boss is here." I got the feeling this was bs right away. I would hang out with Collin at work all the time, he had the type of job were it was just him working and it was totally cool to have someone hang with you at. Well I have been there while it was super busy and that was fine I also know his boss is super cool and told him he could have visitors. All I was doing was stopping by to say hi too, a 5 minute visit. So I didn't believe him. When I told my friend's they both said it sounded sketchy.

Then I did something I hate, something I have never done before and I just never wanted to be that girl. You know the one who has to send her friend to spy on her boyfriend for. Yep. My friend Alyssa had never met Collin so he didn't know what she looked like. So we decided to drive close to his work and she would walk by and see if he was really busy and his boss was there.

I dropped her off and told me to call me and we would meet up. She gave me a call about 5 minuets later, I picked her up and guess what. She tells me it is not busy and there is a girl sitting with him. Immediately a hot flash ran over my body and I thought I was going to puke. Bastard! I decided he could not get away with this and I can't just tell him I know, he had to be caught. So we drove to his work anyway. There is a bar I liked close so I decided I would take my friend's and we would just tell him we were just stopping to say hello on the way to the bar. I walked up to him, he was turned facing the girl, which to my surprise was his ex. He turns around and puts a big smile on and acts like he is doing nothing wrong. I just said hi and told him we were on the way to the bar just wanted to say hi. He was like "oh yeah..cool! How long are you going to be there? If I get off work soon I'll join you!" I just said I don't know as I started to walk away. I stood there trying not to freak out, scream. I hate fights and I hate yelling or being yelled at. I would rather kill people with kindness. If you just freak and yell at people even if they are 100% in the wrong. They get defensive then mad at you. So I played it cool, but I was stand offish.

We are walking away, I feel like shit! We get a block away and I think shit! We can't go to this bar, Alyssa is only 20 what was I thinking. So we go to a coffee shop instead. I am looking in my wallet and see a ten dollar bill. It was Collins he lost it my car. I had it to give back to him tonight. I bought a chai tea and gave the girl a tip with it, then I had $7.90 left and told my friends coffee was on Collin. They both ordered and the total was $7.90. Perfect!

I sat and stared at my coffee. I felt way to sick to even take a sip. My friends did they classic he a jerk who doesn't deserve you spiel. I really was feeling like I was going to puke so I went into the bathroom. It was a single person one, so I just hung out in there for a while. When I got back out there was Collin sitting with my friends. I walked up to him he put his arm around me. I couldn't even look him in the eye. He asked us why we didn't go to the bar, I told him I felt really sick all of a sudden. Then he had the nerve to ask if something was wrong. I told him he should know the answer to that. He said he did but totally did not understand why I was mad. I explained to him in detail why I was. He said Tina was only there getting her paycheck...yeah his ex worked there but it doesn't take that long to get a pay check, and it was not busy so by him making something up to keep me away said it all. Then he said she was waiting for her car to warm up. If you get out if your car to run in pick something up. You car will still be warm when you get back out. He was just full of excuses. Then he said Tina has a boyfriend names Shawn you can even look on her Myspace. After we argued back and forth he said he was going home. I told him we needed to resolve this and figure out where we are. I can't sleep with things unsettled. I gave me keys to my friends and asked if they would just meet me at my car and if I could have 20 minutes they were more than fine with it. It had been awkward enough having that kind of conversation with your boyfriend in a coffee shop with your friends while they are pretending to look at postcards.

Collin lived above the coffee shop so I walked him home so we could talk in private. We sat and I just told him with his track record and can't get off the hook so easy for stuff like this. Even if he was not doing anything wrong coming from him it's hard to believe. I told him when you do things there are consequences. He pleaded with me and I told him if one more thing happens that makes me question him we where done.

I know I should have been done with him that night, but I also know how miserable I am without him and didn't want to give up on him yet. I knew very well who he was and what I was getting myself into from the start.

Well so we still had Sunday for the Science Museum. But it was only Friday and well Saturday was interesting.